jawbreakers

I hope you've come to realize this can never last forever. I'm bound to get bored, and discard you like a worn out pair of jeans. You won't be a thrill to me much longer. Everything gets old, and everything makes me tired.
I hope you pack your things up before I come home, as I don't want you to be here when I arrive at the door. I put the key in the lock, and slowly turn to the left. Open the door, and step inside, and you, are gone. Erased from my life.
I needed a sense of security to break down all these walls.
It's what I thought, but all I really needed...
was for you to walk out the door.
Say goodbye, because it feels so right. Even though those tears in your eyes make me feel like I've done something wrong. They make me feel like I'm the problem. I'm the reason nothing ever works. I scare myself, and I ruin everything that ever could have been, because I'm too terrified to realize someone cares. This is never what I wanted. This is never what i saw coming. But she really adores you, doesn't she? She really truly cares.
I could never give a fuck about presents.
I could never understand your words.
Your body language. You're so much more than what you used to be.
You've grown so much in my eyes.

Close the door behind me, and walk into the room. Slowly sift through broken air, and make my way into the room where you lay. The bags are packed, the shelves seem empty. So I walk into your arms. Unbutton my soul. Undress my heart. Turn off the light.
Show me what you mean when you say,
Baby, I wanna crawl inside you.

what did you first see?

Did you see the stars in my eyes, when you took me away,
from this place I call home. This place I call hell.
And we drive ourselves under the ground,
misplacing our hearts and our minds.
Leaving it all behind, because we only need eachother.
We don't need air, we don't need light.
Nourishment from one another keeps us alive.

Something inside me wants you to love me.
Something beneath my skin tells me to kill you.
Inside this skull lies thoughts I can't share,
thoughts of kissing your lips so lightly,
but just as soon as I lay my hands upon your face,
I smash you into a brick wall. Scratching at your eyes. Hitting you, beating you, tearing off your clothes. Turning down the lights and closing the blinds as I strip your mind, body, soul, and skin.

Swimming in sheets so thick, swimming in your disease.
Drowning in your memories, drowning in your bloodstreams.
Struggling to take your lifeless body,
and push it over the cliff.
To say goodbye is like saying hello, except this time it's so much harder. Hard to not jump into your arms and scream, and ask you why you hate me.
why do you hate me? why do you do this to me?
why me? There is nothing left to break,
There is nothing left to brusie.
I am scars, and wounds. I am made of lies and deception.
I've learned to accept no one.
I've learned to hate it all.

I didn't teach myself these things,
It's you that gave me this flaw.

Lemonheads

Behind your eyes is a vast and rather empty space.
This space should be occupied by your brain.
But that's just not there anymore.

You're ears wish they could hear, but they just keep it simple.
It's back to school all over again.
And I'm pushing back the squares that keep me alive.
They keep me high and on the edge.
Feel it through your veins, and stop your lies.
But you can't. And you won't. Dirty son of a bitch.

Why don't you run? Why the fuck don't you run motherfucker?!
Turn the page mother fucker. I said turn.
The next page. Why would you fuck around with the next page?

Oh, there yah go. It wasn't too hard now was it?
Oh yeah man. You are beyond what I thought.
You said you were right. But I can't let it go that you are damn wrong. All over. All over. Tooooo soooon. Change. Too soon to change. All over. I hope it's over soon.
Change me. Taste me. Change it all.
Save the universe.
I see you everywhere, and it doesn't change a thing...

I'm gonna turn you around and throw you on your back.
Pull out the big guns and make you pay.
Make you pay with your blood on the pavement.
Bitch, don't you wish you never came around.
I'll make you wish you never came around while I crush your body into the cracks of the sidewalk, I'm gonna make you burn. Make you sweat,
Make you see that you're a fucking peice of shit.

I'm gonna make you scream for mercy.
Make you bleed out of control.

I don't...

I don't feel or care or want,
for anything,
for anyone.

I'm alone and I've learned to love it.
Alone and penetrating the inside.
The inside of your bones.
The inside of the classroom, throwing needles,
and casting lines.
Wishing for the worst to come.
And laughing when it's denied.

- - - - - -

Baby, I'm gonna tear you down.
Tear your heart down.
Tear your soul apart,
piece by piece.
Baby, I'm gonna destroy everything you got goin' for you. I'm gonna kill it all and bury it in your backyard.
Baby, I'm gonna rip your shirt off,
and throw it into the dirt.
And oh baby, I just gotta feel myself fall into you.
Fall into your fist. And feel the blood rush down my face,
into my eyes. Across my body.
Cause baby, you know what I like.
I'm gonna make your pulse a little faster.
Cause baby, if you could see what you do to me.
If you could know, if I had the guts to tell you...
baby, I'd spill it all.

But I don't wanna. I don't gotta.
Remember those days that I still think of.
These thoughts are three years old.
And I can't lie, I don't feel like I used to.
I don't see like I used to.

Baby, you got nothing
Not like you did when I was fifteen.