we aren't happening

If everything happens for a reason, then tell me what anyone does to deserve this.
If everything is meant to be..then I don't want to be this anymore.
You're not you anymore, but I'm still me.
If this is what you wanted then it's here.
Here for you to take
For the taking, withdraw.
Breathe just to feel.
Feel just to be.
You're no more real than the last thing I made up.
The last thing I saw taunting me.

what's the verdict?
What was the crime?

Renovate your life.
Because nothing is ever good enough.
Nothing is ever sweet enough.
Nothing is ever cool enough.

and you were never good enough.
They warned you, told you.
Held you down, tied you down.
Chained you to the ground.

It's too complicated when you are the centre of the circle, the centre of the universe. The middle of attention but only in the worst of ways. Clearly, it's clear. Crystal.

Maybe I like the fact that you don't like me.
Maybe I enjoy you whispering behind my back.
Like the fucking prick you are.
If you really hated me, you'd say it to my face.

Nothing really works that great for you anymore.
You broke it all.
It's been cut away and you can't get it back. Not now.
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========= Shove it bitch.
Cutting out your life. Cutting out what was reality but it's goneeeee.
Hey you, right there. Summer's over so you can get on with the real world.
Think of this moment. Think of right now. Think of everything you aren't.
My eyes burn, but you can't hear.

Save yourself. cut yourself. be what you wanna be.
Do what you wanna see.
Feel what you gotta be.
Make yourself happy by redecorating yourself to be "the shiznick."
Man, they think you're so awesome.

Wood. Burlap.
Battle stations. It's all around you. So try and push it away.
Keep it close to your mind, but far enough to be saved.

Make yourself, build yourself.
Be loved. Be hated.
Keep yourself full of confidence and watch me
Deflate.