Everything is broken.

I'm trying to forget.
I'm trying to erase it all.
Forget everything you told me.
Forget everything you showed me.
But this mindset I've been given,
Always takes me to the beginning.
And this guilt trip I've been put on,
Always gives me such a feeling.

I tried to forget you.
I almost think I did.
Lies can't cover up everything.
But they can always hide.

How can you say things like that?
How can you do things like that?
So careless and free,
Suavely manipulating me.
And everything you do, everything you say.
Cannot ever hurt me.
But make me want you more.
It's the bad that makes me love you.
It's the violence that makes me care.
It's the way you yell and scream.
It's the way you tell me I'm worthless.
That's what seems to get me on.

And it's the way you push me against the wall,
with your hands around my neck.
Telling me you hate me.
Telling me you don't care.
Hurting me, and changing me,
until I'm two dimensional across the floor.

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you're not worth that much, you're not that great. You're just my one and only. My one and only, yep that's you. It hurts to say it and it hurts to know. You're the blood pumping through my veins, and the warmth across my cheeks.
You're the fuckin uselss thing I call my "soul one". You see inside me, you can read me. See everything on my mind. I can't think about anything. You'll pull it all away. Throw it down and call it stupid, yet proceed to tell me I'm brilliant.

I cannot tame your hunger for blood.
Your hunger for flesh.
Your hunger for needs, that I call my duty.
My chore?
Your slave.

If you listen, you'll hear.
If you look, you'll see.
If you listen to me, if you see me..
Then maybe you can help me out of what I'm desperately trying to lose.
Because I want to be with you.

And I want your rope around my hands forever