Out here in nothing engulfed by the seeaa

It's been so long.Maybe too long.
No one reads these things anymore so I'm speaking to air in a way. You could say.
I guess.
am I crazy?

Well not really. I'm speaking to internet waves of some sort.
Who pays attention to these anyway?
who pays attention to anything anymore?
and if you want attention you are an emo kid who cares of nothing but yourself.
But come on
We're teenagers
We're selfish, and I'm told this almost every day. I am selfish
you are selfish
Isn't that human nature?
I know I try but since summer has taken over our minds and life we just frollick into the blue waters at the lake, not caring about our minds being damaged by things we were told not to do.
There is no schoool
so we care of nothing

Did I mention I got a job?
Yes, I did.
It sucks. I would never want to do this forever.
Dishwashing, peeling vegetables, weighing out spaghetti and mashed potatoes into correctly sized portions.
Take me away from the restaurant business now.
I know I'll quit soon and go get another job and hate it just as much.
wonderful, no?

Working sucks anyway.
Mooch off your parents for as long as you can.
Well, maybe not.
I don't want to. My parents are weird.
2 more years!!!
you know that means I'll be gone.
And they'll be glad.

Have you noticed how things get tons more complicated once you hit 16?
It does. I have discussed this with my friends.
And it's true.
Things can be so good and then just screw you over the next day.
Why does this happen? It's stupid.
How immature can boys my age, and even older, be?
A lot of my friends have even given up on guys altogether.
Not to say they are a lesbian now..they just don't want anything.
any sort of love but friendship.

I would like love. that would be pretty cool someday.
but now?
Well first off, the boys here couldn't be anymore stupid about everything.
They want you for tonight and your best friend the next night.
Because they are pricks.
and the ones that will treat you like gold.
Well you won't even consider them.
you know why. your image cannot be ruined.
you're selfish. you don't want him. He's a nerd and you're too cool.
Even though he would treat you so well.

We love guys that are assholes.We just can't get enough, can we?
Because CEARLY, we also love getting screwed over by a prick who cares of nothing but the moment when he finally nails you.

Well that was nice.
Enjoy my internet waves you primitive screwheads.